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Post by Raiyven on Oct 3, 2015 20:50:54 GMT -5
Shawn drove Raiyven home after his divorce with Shayne. There was no conversation. Once the car stops, Raiyven looks at Shawn.
You haven't said anything ever since the divorce hearing. You okay? I know Shayne and Ethan showed their true colors. Why don't you walk me to my door at least?
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Post by Shawn Youngblood on Oct 4, 2015 14:42:57 GMT -5
The drive was difficult. Reality sat in that the marriage was over. Pulling up to Raiyven's residence was almost an ending to a beginning. The decision to walk her was a way to allow a new thing to take over.
I'm sorry. I'm not good company. I feel a little worried like a failure. Then I let those two get under my skin. I know I shouldn't worry because I got a better thing in front of me. Just bummed out about it and pulled you into it. I know I'm not the best company right now. I'll be alright. I just need to accept it I guess. What I thought would be a sweet goodbye has been a distasteful one. It has nothing to do with you. You know how I feel about you. It has more with me letting go and holding on to you.
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Post by Raiyven on Oct 4, 2015 16:24:08 GMT -5
Raiyven didn't like seeing him unlike himself. She knew he needed something to cheer him up.
Look baby. Why don't you come inside. I'll make you a great hot tea. Think that will cheer you up. Maybe we can cuddle on my couch and be with each other. I'll make you dinner. Think it's time I take care of you. So come on in and I'll make that tea for you.
Raiyven walks in as she goes to her kitchen to prepare the dinner and put the tea on the stove.
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Post by Shawn Youngblood on Oct 5, 2015 5:57:14 GMT -5
Watching Raiyven walk in her house was a way of me making up my mind. Am I gonna dwell on my past or walk to my future. I walk in and close the door. Seeing her in the kitchen to make me something was so cool. I began my walk to her and wrap my arms around her. Holding her from behind as she made the tea.
I'm sorry. It's not that I'm dwelling on my ex wife. I do want you as my future and not her. It put you in a weird position. I don't like that. I blame myself and now we are fighting them for what? Retribution? Who cares about them? My life is now with you. Beating them may bring short term satisfaction. Long term satisfaction is knowing I'm with the woman I really want to be with. Forgive me if my pain caused you discomfort. I never want to hurt you or make you feel less than what you are.
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Post by Raiyven on Oct 5, 2015 11:16:58 GMT -5
Raiyven feels his arms as she buckles. His words made her happy. He's all she wanted. Her left hand felt his arms while her right hand was on the back of his head. After a few minutes, she turns around as she finishes cooking the tea.
Baby I know how it feels to love someone and another person take it away. You don't understand why. You blame yourself and maybe your manhood. I always thought I wasn't good enough or a woman. It took me a long time to realize something better was coming my way. I never thought it would be you but I know it is you. I didn't want to confuse you or be the one to be the bridge over your divorce or the reason why. I've got feelings for you Shawn. That's why it hurt earlier because she doesn't love you. I do. I didn't want to say it until I know you are over her and I become your life.
Raiyven touches his face as her eyes are locked on him.
I don't want to push you away Shawn. I'm okay being your friend if it means you are happy. I'm okay being your girlfriend. I won't lie and say I don't feel because I do. I do love you Shawn. I can't compete with your past. I won't compete with her or any other woman that may have your attention. All I want is you to be happy. No matter if we are just friends. I won't deny how I feel for you. I love you. I want to be in love with you. There's a difference but it depends if you want to be with me to be that bridge. Or is it because you love me? I don't want to be unfair to your divorce and be fair to you. I think about you all the time. So Shawn this was difficult for me but it won't keep me from loving you any less or be your friend. I want to be your girlfriend if you want that. I'll honor what you want.
Sorry if this frightens you. We can hang out and be the best of friends. If that's all I can have then I'll take that. Just know this woman loves you. I love you not because of what you have but for who you are. I don't expect you to trust me because of your divorce. I'm not with you for any other reason than just love being with you. I want to take care of you. Shawn I want to love you.
Raiyven steps on her toes to kiss him as a tear runs down her face.
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Post by Shawn Youngblood on Oct 5, 2015 18:49:35 GMT -5
The warm hand on his face and the tear down her face had a defying impression. Her words were so impactful and compelling.
I'm not going anywhere. I know what I got in you. Definitely don't want to mess that up. Things will be different and take time for me. I trust you and do care a lot for you. Part of me wants to feel free and put my heart out there again. There's another part of me that wants to be closed off. I won't lie about that. There is another part that tells me I'm the luckiest man in the world to have you. And another part that's afraid of losing you. You are my best friend in the whole world. Hanging out and being here I'm at peace and very comfortable. We got magic when we're together. Is it love? I believe it is. I want it to be. You are the greatest thing ever to cross my path. I'd be a fool to let that go. I've got to be honest and say it does scare me. Being hurt is part of it but won't allow one woman to dictate what another woman is to me.
My hand wiped the tear off her face as a kiss came afterwards.
I can't lose you Raiyven. There's no other woman but you. I want to be your boyfriend. I want to be the man in your life. We can take it slow. We've become great friends. Now I want to take it to the next level. I want to date you. I want to take care of you. So how about we have a dinner date. If you really want to cook for me then that's great. Just let me hold you while you do it. This moment I don't want to let go of.
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