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Post by Shawn Youngblood on Oct 6, 2015 20:28:35 GMT -5
The talk with Angel Fyre hit home. I allowed one incident to control the other. I couldn't let the one thing that cared about me to walk out without a fight. The day went on as it was close to lunch. The decision was apparent to meet with Raiyven for something more important. I arrived at her place and sat in my car wondering what she was doing. I took myself out of my car and walked to her door. I knocked on her door hoping to get a smiling face.
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Post by Raiyven on Oct 6, 2015 20:32:07 GMT -5
Raiyven heard the knock. She walked and opened the door. It was Shawn. She was surprised.
This is a surprise. How are you? You should of called. I might of made lunch for you.
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Post by Shawn Youngblood on Oct 6, 2015 20:48:10 GMT -5
Take a walk with me.
She looked so beautiful. Her hand fell in mind as we walked to the beach. The ocean was calm as I had to say a few things.
Raiyven I think some things I need to clarify. The other night didn't go like I planned. I pushed you out because I was hurt over my divorce. I was not fair to you. I was selfish and didn't see myself in your shoes. I lost something the other night and it wasn't my wife through divorce. It was you. I don't want to lose that. I don't want to lose you. You asked me the other night what you were to me? Were we friends? You're my best friend. No one knows me like you. The problem is I changed the subject when we told each other we loved one another. I was scared because I do love you but I'm not in love with you. My bigger problem is that I don't want to walk away regretting anything. I have no idea where this will go or if it will at all in a few minutes. I do want to see you. Not as friends but as more. I want to date you. I know I don't deserve you. You are way better than I deserve. I do want to date you because I'm at my happiest when I'm with you.
Look Raiyven I'm putting it all on the line right here at this moment. I'd love to fall in love with you. I feel you deserve better and I'm not in your class. It won't stop me from being your friend but I'd love to commit the one thing I had a hard time committing to the other night. I want to commit my attention and time with you. I'd love to be your boyfriend if you're willing to be my girlfriend. I know it's asking a lot. You may not want to after I was a total dick. You were kind and made dinner anyway. I'd love to repay you by taking you out to lunch. So say something to me? Or am I in the doghouse? You want to go out with me or do you want me to leave you alone?
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Post by Raiyven on Oct 6, 2015 21:01:45 GMT -5
Raiyven touches his face.
Here we are again in the same situation we were the other night. Me touching your face wanting more from you. It's all I want Shawn. I told you I will never be second fiddle to anyone. I won't. I love you. Matter of fact I'm in love with you. I couldn't tell you because you just had a traumatic experience. I want to be your girl. I want to be the girl in your life. If you want that then I'm all in. It has to be me and me only. I can't be put on the back burner. You can't be out on one of your award shows with the lead actress and me at home. If I can't be with you then I won't be. I've seen how some girls don't mind it. How some girls will take anything but I'm different. My one request is you honor me and I am first in your life. If you can do that then take me to lunch. I'll be your girl. Now are you sure you want me? If you do seal it and let's have lunch. If this is a game then find your leading lady and leave me alone. I'm not ready to cry over you again Shawn. I love you and in love with you. Now you know how I feel. I believe I deserve how you feel. So tell me Shawn am I worth it?
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Post by Shawn Youngblood on Oct 7, 2015 6:14:37 GMT -5
You know you're worth it. You are who I want. It's about starting something new. I haven't done everything right but want to from this moment on. I want you to be my girl. I want to take you out. I want to take it one day at a time. I'm yours Raiyven. I'm laying my chips on the table. I'm all in. I'm giving you my heart.
I looked at Raiyven as her hand was still on his face. He touches her face with both of his hands. Leaning over he kisses her. He felt the love she had for him.
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